Heavenletters

Beloved One Love, when I read your beautiful words above, I agree wholeheartedly. There is no debate with God. It is a surrender.

And then later I find myself wondering. Did I choose? I don't know. It seems to me that God came upon me. It was like the choice made itself and then I noticed. It's more like after many many years, I woke up knowing something I didn't know before. Did I CHOOSE? I don't know.

Would I choose? Yes, I would. I certainly would. Wouldn't anyone choose if they could? But is it a choice we make or a state of consciousness we come to?

When I look at my life, it seems like becoming in service to God was a kind of miracle I witnessed, and there was no choice to make. There was the awareness of God, and what could I do but surrender, though I can't say I remember surrendering. I was surrendered. I am grateful and can only feel I was very very lucky.

God has said that we are destined to come to Him in our awareness, and that it's only a question of when, how soon or how late.

For you it was soon. For me it was late.

Maybe words just can't say what discovering God really is.