Do You mean to say it's all
Do You mean to say it's all right to be me? Oh come on! I was taught, and made to deeply believe, it isn't. Where were You then? You let it happen. Well, We allowed it to happen. Perhaps it's okay then, fear and all. But now, what? Your words are making me sad and angry and strangely happy all at once, I guess You can hear that. What you ultimately desire is be yourself. That's what You said in Your Heavenletter #392, and You're soo right. But does it have to be that difficult to be myself? For better results perhaps?? I am so tired of it, at times I almost start suspecting it's all just words and cardboard carrots. But what could be the motivation for something that stupid? There is none I can think of, and so.....
While I'm writing this, Theophil posted a wonderful quotation under Heaven #710 which is about fear. Re-reading it, I find this: What is the big deal if you fall flat on your face? Indeed, what? There is no doubt it has been a big deal. I would love for it to not matter any more. Being fearlessly, unabashedly myself, wow, wow --- the most enticing thing in all of Heaven and Earth. And the only important one. Could You just go on about this some more?
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I used to pay lots of money and time for the courses and lectures about enlightenment and various methods. I was looking for something more, something that I could not define! God in Heavenletters was the tool and method and master and Guru and everything that I had been seeking for years and years. I have found it. I am sooooo happy. So happy. Thumbs up!