Heavenletters

Almost a year later, do You see what I mean, dear God? Maybe I'm not looking quite so far a-field any more but it still escapes me that I already am where I want to be. And as You seem to imply, as long as I try to see, I will not see. What does it mean to become aware of what is there already? When what I'm looking and longing for is already the case, then, obviously, none of the known human faculties can reveal it or they would have long since done so. Perhaps the error is in looking for something else, something other than this. Should this be Your answer, I have still been doing way too much. Yes, I see, all seeking and striving is by logical necessity for something else and if, like my arm or breath, You are not something else, You cannot be found by that method. I'm coming back to leaning toward our Oneness. It is hard not to seek when you feel lack and a need to find.