Heavenletters

Chuck, let me use your comment to point out one of the things that make Heavenletters™ so special, in fact, incomparably precious for me.

For many years I have lived under the impression that my intentions don't count at all. When it dawned on me that this thought forms an intention in itself, I found myself in the odd situation of someone who feels absolutely unable to do something about his own intentions and who, if you look closely, doesn't realy know his intentions are his. From an intellectual point of view, they have to be his own, but they don't feel like that, they feel totally alien. It's a situation that makes you very unhappy (and some of us even psychotic). It's a situation you are definitely not going to change by some decision or act of will. But I don't want to go into this any further. Let's just say that conditioning can go very deep and can be cruelly self-protecting.

There are many teachings around today that tell you about this and usually go on suggesting you "simply" or "just" do this or that to overcome the problem of counterproductive intention. I have seen many of them, and they simply drove me crazy because, intelligent as they were sounding, I could not for the life of me do what they said. The hardened inner "NO" always won in the end.

At first I thought that Heavenletters too were teaching me to-dos. Until I found they didn't. All the suggestions are so soft, so open, so disarmingly gentle. I have never once heard an "or else!" It is always clear that if you have difficulties doing this or doing that, there will be something else you can try, always something else you can try, always something else you can at least look at and turn in your hands and heart, always a path, however stymied you may feel, always some crack you can seep through once you start agreeing and seeing that you are the water, the wind God says you are.

So, Chuck, hoping you can see that I'm not disagreeing with you, I want to point out that our lives have different aspects and are different in their main focus.Yes, we are powerful. But realizing that, really knowing it, can mean for some that they have to walk the path of (seeming) total powerlessness first.