But that is what we all do
But that is what we all do to some extent, dear Sasha. Do not criticize yourself for it. Trying to right a wrong hasn't worked out and forgetting wasn't possible either. But so what? At least now you truly long for a solution and that's the wonderful part of it. Getting seriously serious. You may find it helpful to read a Heavenleter on the topic of Forgiveness. You can find it here:
http://www.heavenletters.org/what-forgiveness.html
And if you sense a vastness around or within you sometimes, listen into it, go there often. That is where healing is.


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"I enjoy the company of all the bright souls who brighten each day with the light and love in response to each HeavenLetter we gracefully receive. HeavenLetters always are in tune with this heart. I'm learning it is now time for my heart to sing."
Steve Howes, Gloucester, U.K.
http://nimekuwa.wordpress.com