Heavenletters

Good morning, dear God. Yes, it appears that some of us think they know more than You do. I am one of them. But it's not really that we think we know more. It's something else, I believe.

In Your Heavenletter #0001 You said, "You came with nothing but Me." So we all came loving, trusting, happy, confident -- holy. But then we were taught that we were full of faults, in some cases even that a bundle of faults was what we amounted to. We accepted that to some degree or wholesale, and what we came with has been fraught with fear since then. Being what we ARE went terribly wrong once, or so it seemed. Can we risk another attempt at being who we ARE? Are we able to believe and trust that it will go right this time? What does it take?

It is easy to see and feel and even sometimes be the holiness of Your mountains and oceans. But I, holy? If I open my eyes a little as You are suggesting here, what I perceive is fear of another, and final, devastating blow. There may be other not so well known reasons like fear of more responsibility. I don't know, it doesn't feel like that. I can only do my best to follow Your words day after day, trying not to feel bad when my best seems so little. Very gradually, fear is diminishing - something like a prolonged recovery after some sudden, serious disease. I hope to become able to accept my holiness, and meet Your eyes, soon.