Heavenletters

Right after I wrote the email I'll add below and sent it to my dearest friend, I next read today's Letter From Heaven. It was such a perfect letter to receive that I feel hugged. Thank you.
My email said:
I don't know why, but this morning when I woke up at four and started praying and talking to God, I suddenly had so much clarity on the chain of events in my life from this day back to age 16 that I discovered many real truths about myself and my choices/actions.

It was like a complete "connect the dots" which allowed me an understanding on a level I'd never before managed to find. I could objectively see how I'd either manipulated or accepted people and events. (I've tried doing this before but it was too painful for me to clearly look at my mistakes, mishandling, confusion, failures, and regrets over unworthy actions and I would avoid the self-examination.) For some reason this morning I could look at it all without judging myself. I could see why my reasoning and thoughts had been a certain way, and why I took certain selfish or unworthy actions... all of it was driven by fear, but seeking emotional and financial security.

An important breakthrough this morning was that when looking at the things I have done that I know hurt or affected others negatively while regretting those actions, I can finally underneath it all see my basically good heart and know that I am forgiven. Before I always became paralyzed by my regrets and rushed away from examining those memories and thoughts that were too terribly painful. Obviously, doing that keeps one from gaining a perspective of clarity.

Most importantly, I could see the fear-based ways, actions and choices are something I no longer have need of and I feel free to view situations in ways I never have before, and really make new choices.

Thank you for your part in my new-found inner freedom.
Love you,
Barbara