Heavenletters

Dear Chrissy, welcome to Heavenletters and this forum! I am confident you will find your answers here. Give yourself a little time. From your post I can see that you already know the most important things. Yes, it is all in your heart. And God speaks to us all the time but most of us need some tuning in or some getting used to His voice.

Here's my welcoming quotation for you. It's from Heavenletter #798, "One More Half Step":

You may well not know where you stand right now, or what you are standing on. What you can know is that you are somewhere. You are on the trail. And now you keep going.
You wend your way forward to where you began.
Wherever you are in life this moment, whether you can see them or not, the stars are above you and there is the Moon, lighted by the Sun. There is a lodestar you follow, and it will lead you. it will lead you directly to Me. We can say I await you. What I await is your notice of Me. I do not hide. You may not look.
You may think that you have further to go when, all the while, I am right here. It behooves you to know this: I am just around the corner. Have enthusiasm for your life as you set out on it, and you will find Me faster.
Your fortune is peeking at you. Come, one more half step, and you will be upon Me.