Heavenletters

Lord,
as I pounder this line in the letter

"When you have a question about your life, little or big, it doesn't really matter much how you answer it. You have a choice to make here and there, and you make your choice."

Lord,
I have been questing not only my life but everything in my role as your child. The lost of my father has angered me, hurt me, scared me, and has allowed my sister and I to fight and I can not stand to talk, to look at, or be around her. Money I have allowed to tare us apart because dad wanted my sister to be in control of his funds and my sister was to give to me as I needed and my sister is only taking care of her family and allowing me to struggle. Tells me I had enough of his money when he was alive. Also wwe have a law suiet open for wrong ful death and she says what we get from that I can have. We may not get anything because dad was drinking and even though he was a pedistrian when he was killed they are trying to use that as he was not in sober and thinking rash.

Lord,
I listen to you when you told me to mend bridges and forgive. I did try, and when she replyed it took you long enough you forgive our fathers murders two weeks after his death and took you 4 months to forgive your flesh and blood. My reply was God's child is stubborn and I am sorry, I just want to heal and allow dad to rest, and the only way is to mend our relationship.

Lord,
Truth be told I only did as you commanded and I am sorry I am so bitter and hurt and full of anger still. For she be littles me and complianes about her husband and how they are argueing over the funds my father left and how she is not contrubuting as a family. Will I struggle and cry to just be happy and want to just care for what I can.

Lord,
I am her flesh and blood. I am single and raiseing my child on my own. My father helped me always with my son and the mantiance on my car. I do not want a larger amount of money but enought to fix my car, get winter clothes and to leave to Morocco and live with my future husband. For she can have the rest of the money.

Lord,
My sister is very unhappy and I know she has now since of direction and two wonderful children she wants to raise and she is doing her best to be the wife her husband needs. I pray for them and for them to come together through your love, your grace I ask you to melt them down and mold them into Godly man and woman you want them to be and to fit each other desires and work with you and not through there own flesh. To give her what she seeks. I love her she is all I have ever known my whole life even though I always thought she raised me, but she didn't she was just present in my daily life. For how do you live with someone and really they do not know you at all nor concider you family.

Lord,
I am trying to let go of my anger and be refreshed in your spirit. I want to be happy not anger or abandon. I would change everything to have my father back.

Lord,
I want him back, I need him.
I do understand he was ready to go home to you. I never thought he would be taken from us the way he did, nor did I now it would be so SOON.

Lord,
forgive me for I know I am bitter and you command me to let go, and forgive...I also know money is the rule of all evil. Yes it is about money but most of all I am angery over the fact she is only careing for her family and I am her blood too, and children do come first, but she has help her husband and her husband parents. I only have myself know. My son needs me and my mother needs me. and all I want to do is Die and just give up i am tired of the daily struggles and trials, for I am completed and noone seems to understand I am not of this flesh for everything is your will I died 7 years ago.

Lord,
I told you I can't do it on my on anymore. I haven't the strength. You have so much you want to do through my flesh and I am doing my best to obey...

I love you lord, and forgive me I am not obediant as you want me to be and I do not have a pure and forgiving heart as you do, I know through you everthing is possiable.

In Jesus Name,
Amen