Heavenletters

Hello Gloria :o)

I feel better today. Yesterday was horrible. I was freezing for hours. The freezing comes from the inside and I can put on as many duvets,blankets and clothes as I want to. The freezing only stops when the process is over, and I can relax again. It is fear. 2007 was full of these processes. I was freezing so much with peoples cruelty, projections and scapegoat behaviour.

You need buckets of courage and strength in order to rise after having been given the label "black jack". That`s the reason why it`s so hard to get out of prison, and back into society as functional Human Beings. We remain prisoners even when we come out. It`s all to do with heart, consciousness and attitude. When we went into prison it was maybe because of little courage and strength. When we leave prison we need even more courage and strength. So what do we gain when we are in prison? Human Doings need to find a place in their hearts to allow Human Beings to rise again, including themselves as Beings. That`s why we are in the situation we are in today. It is to show the world heart energy, to create a wonderful society everywhere. This is about everyone. Nothing more nor anything less. Just that. Finding our way back home, to our spirit and soul-connection as our everyday living. God sometimes seems to forget that I am a Human Doing and a Human Being too. I make mistakes and I always have done. The drawback if you like in working to raise consciousness is that it can be hard to see so clearly, as well as it can be hard not to see clearly. It`s wonderful, inspiring, loving and full of hope too, don`t get me wrong. At the same time it can be too much. And I am allowed to feel that. I am allowed to feel overwhelmed. It`s OK.

My children means the world to me, but I can detach myself from them. Nikita and I had this conversation the other day. A very open conversation, where we both agreed that I have to detach myself from them a bit more at times. It was a nice, loving conversation, very straight forward and open. Illusions disappear with honest, straightforwardness. Then everything is what it is, with the consciousness that is just there and then.

The day will come when we will be more prepared to welcome children into this world of ours, because we will understand how valuable they are, and that they have come to teach us something. There are steadily children coming with released consciousness. The world`s oldest and most important profession :o) raising children :o) yet the only profession where we don`t need skills, education. We don`t need anything, because it`s so natural. Is it?

When I am looking at what is surrounding me now compared to what was there before, there is a huge difference. I was told that people I had around me were not really my friends, because they couldn`t understand me. I was soon to see, and I did. This is now 6,5 years ago. I did see, and I have lived with it. I did loose almost everyone when I moved to Soon. It`s all to do with consciousness, and there is nothing I can do about it. I would never want my "previous" life back. I don`t need it. I value it for what it`s been - the life or existence that followed my consciousness at the time. Life can never be anything other than that.

I have just had hot chocolate with sweet cream, yummy. Thanks for rattling me till my teeth fall out :o) How about your teeth? :o)

Lovely, shiny day of fresh breath to you 2