Heavenletters

hi there.
i suppose writing this is cmoing from a very negative space and quite disempowered

ive become mentally ill after three years of things in my life falling to pieces
based on worrying and not being able to make a decsions

i was ok . always had trouble with simple tasks but also very smart and spirtual and
hard working

three years ago- i crashed and its been a downward spiral, losing jobs, frinds, god.

i have been everywhere looking and that is the problem

im obsessed with fhingin something

and i need practical help eiwht practical things
i am at my parents house now- not doing mucha dn it affects them

i just feel so lost abotuwhat o do to get better
i know in my head what to do but odnt do it.

and it just gets worse,

ive been here 6 weeks an dhardly do anything but its also a pattern
talking about myslef asing for help
and not doing my share to help in the house

its a waste of a life... and i dont seem to be ablet oshake it off

i feel dead an di lost all my friends--

i jsut seem to write negagive an get more negative.

my brain is not working correctly