Heavenletters

Hello Gloria,
You give me joy, every day. Thank you. It has been wonderful.
And I would like it to go on forever. What makes me realize also it can stop any day.
The heavenletter every morning at around nine o'clock is the one thing I count on to happen. And each day the letter is speaking to me. Often giving me immense comfort.
That is too good not to continue!
I am aware that I should not take this happening for granted (or should I?) en truly treasure every moment it is there.Thank you again, Gloria, for your boundless effort.

Heralding a new day. Yes.
Something happened to me and I would like to tell you about it because you played a part in it. Last friday I cried (with tears and all) about something I thought a friend did wrong to me. While I was crying I also totally realised this was my own made up story that had nothing to do with Reality. Even so, it took some time before I could stop moping about it.
I saw myself. Strugling to act out her drama. Believing it. Not knowing NOTHING was wrong and knowing just that.

The next morning I woke up and felt totally freed from any feeling of anxiety, anger and what have you. Peaceful and happy. Laughing..in a friendly way, about the scene I made.
Not to my friend, but to myself.
All other lesser feelings about other things were gone and that day I lived on a cloud.
Everything was good and above all, I was good. No feelings of insecurity.
The people I met saw it in my eyes and I saw that in their eyes.
There was something different. And that something worked.
It made me happy and the person next to me therefore as well.
The other way around?

Then I did not read the letter on saturday which is unusual. I just forgot.
Being amazed still about the change..
So there were two to read on sunday. And they blew me away.
Who is this Gloria Wendroff? A sudden urge to know fell upon me.
So, I googled you and stumbled upon two videos of the bridging haeven & earth show.
And there you were....
Going out of your way to tell us how you do your wonder and how anyone can do it.
Telling us about your path. You look and act very loveable, by the way.
When you spoke about taking a course in miracles, I stopped the video mid scentence and ordered the book. I did not have to think about it.
I knew about the book's title for years and that it was channeled but never did any effort to find out more. The CWG books have always been my prefered guidance material.

Then, I searched "a course in miracles"...on youtube.
Found an incredible informative workshop about the Real World by Gloria and Kenneth Wapnick. What a find, these people anwer my questions! This sounds finally real to me.
Then I could not wait to read the book, which I first ordered in real paper format and bought it again! to read on my computer.
And then I read for two days straight. I called in sick from work.
Have to read read read and then some more.

Today I am in the twilight zone.
"What you have now, We can call jet lag, or, more accurately, consciousness lag."

I dream to be free as you Gloria.
Godwriting or anything simular is what I desire to be and do.
Being a very young girl (38 now), I thought about being a writer. In my own cottage on the prairie..
It can turn out to be something completely different of course.
I feel strongly though that I should start here.

But yes, I am afraid. What will come out, or not come out.
This is a critical point in my life. Or..I made it so.
And I would like to hold your hand for just a little while, could I?
I'm alright but just because it is pleasant to have a companion.

Now, whom am I asking this question?

Thanks for reading.
Love,
Esther

ps. forgive my spelling mistakes, dutch is my language.