Heavenletters

What remains is "interactions with people" and what their treatment "means" to us. Indeed Jochen, your conclusion is impeccable. No meaning, no interpratation, no recrimination, no suffering. It would be something valuable to achieve, but then what? Has the absence of pain something to do with the fullness of happiness? I can't have any plain or extraordinary happiness without that missing part of myself that I simply hope and trust is somewhere. I want it back or I can't have peace. I just pass my time, in an house ( preferably a beautiful one ) or outside ( not too cold ), with a job or without it ( better without!), with people treating me well or badly, with my interpretations of their behaviours or without, with my up and down. And I already know that "All the happiness in the world is only happiness in the world" ( God said so, not me ), fine to have it, but then what? The Promise was not this plain happiness, this is a sweet candy, where are the Elysian Fields? In my heart... in my heart they abide...for now.