Heavenletters

As I like to say, something that does not resonate today may resonate tomorrow. This Heavenletter leaves me puzzled again, wondering how our dear Author of Heavenletters can be so facile; and clinging to the hope that another day I may be mature enough to see what I clearly don't see now. Since I'm experiencing this sentiment more and more often recently, what could it mean? When it's obvious that I can't just decide to leave fear, see my glory, have trust, love more, why does God ask me to do just that? Must be about reaching some new level. And it seems that if I'm unable to simply go there, frustration is a good-enough lever. Argh. Of the many things God suggests I do, there is one I find I'm sometimes able to do: be silent. This has to do the trick then, hopefully clearing the path for fearlessness and all the rest..

But peace, from it's feeling tone, is a strange word and thing. Think of a world in which peace reigns. Think of your home without an inch of friction. Peace. Peace, like anything soft and precious, needs... fearless determination. So perhaps it's not about losing fear so much but about not heeding it.