Heavenletters

Let's admit "once and for all" that we are living the most important and interesting period of our life, though not an easy one. Embarking the train of Heavenletters signifies that a part of ourself really wants that Illumination, Ascension (or any other word that suits us). Let us assume that we have gone through the bases (or basics) of our transformation, which is mainly letting go the old questions on ourself, the old intellectualizations, the old wounds.

Letting go the old dramas does not mean that they won't come back or flash back at us for good but even if they do so, we will still see them as belonging to the past and identify them as such. Yet there are times when we play the game of revisiting them as if we were enjoying to dive back into the energy of the victim. It is almost a seduction like the one that operates after you quitted alcohol, drugs, smoking. You feel like having just a little glass, a little sip, a little puff, a little dose...just a last one or near-to-last one. It might be called spiritual addiction.

These flash backs can operate subtly and seductively when they present themselves to us as these types of thoughts: «What am I suppose to do now? I don't really know. I don't know how to manipulate these things». Do we really and deeply don't know? It seems that sometimes it is easier to back off than to take the full responsibility of what we know we have to do. Do we want sufficiently that Illumination, that experience of I AM? If yes, why don't we have it?

Yes, God says we don't have to «climb the whole stairs at once. Step by step is fast enough.» But one thing is sure, your are not marching the steps backwards but forwards, once and for all. We know it is very compelling but is it not what we have been willing or asking for?