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pain should be a motivator of action to help others out of a jam. hurt and cares of the world makes me cry. my ego is to help but god holds me back. helping others is the key to release of pain. being likeminded with likewise people. but one thing you are right about ego no matter what the motive if the agenda isnt closeness with god then you could become caught up. my question though. isnt it god's will for you to help the poor and needy and be a watchman of the widows and fatherless, to set the captives free? what type of ego do you have to have then. true pain for me is when my hands are tied. there is work to be done people dying, mothers crying, 3rd world countries wondering if there is a god. my ego says that there is a god, my god that lives in me. greater is he that lives in me than me living in the world. my ego says that i live in this world and that i am here to help. my ego is hurt when i see another dead child hit the pavement, another veteran come back without a home or services or a woman being mistreated in the shelter system as i was and still am. my ego says i could do better than this with the god that i serve. do not get me wrong my ego knows that i can not save the world single handedly but i could do my best around and in my circle. my ego says that i love people but my ego says that i love myself too. i believe that there is balance in ego or less we would not have had the chance to be bless to have one at all. we must be content in all sizes of a situation. i have yet to learn that. there is no real scripture in ego only contentment and underlying balance. truly ego is demolished when we take god seriosly when he suggest giving our all to him freely , your submitting our all to him and all that comes along with it for the world suggest in saying that god forsaken word (waiting). that is supernatural and require supernatural power and grace all the principles that no one could see unless felt or placed in action before your eyes like seeing jesus in the flesh or for mary's sake felt and for the world's sake risen.
my god given ego says that i would like to help right now. i cry for life with my ego. because better can be done in jesus name. my only prayer would to be around real friends and company that wants to see the world change for jesus sake. still i need sound people who would help me make sound judgement and keep me spiritually fit for my ego maybecome out of control. thanks for your powerful comments.this site is truly blessed my dear Jochen. your words help me see where my problem might be. please feel free to email me anytime with your comments at armsofsociety [at] yahoo [dot] com
be blessed
vic