Heavenletters

God's direct response to Juliana's question:

Juliana to God:

Dear God,

I tried to meditate, but i cant hear you, i tried to meditate....but in the end i end up crying....sad of my current miserable life.......i dunno when can i hear you......sometimes i know what i'm doing....the next i'm lost....i wish i can hear you every mins of my life.....

God to Juliana:

Beloved Juliana, you have jumped to some conclusions. You have made some assumptions.

Where did I say you have to meditate? I do not say that. I do not mean to imply that you have to do anything. I don’t mean that you have to try at all. Trying doesn’t bring you peace, not that you have to have peace either.

This is not a test, beloved. You cannot fail. I cannot fail. Straining to listen and listening are not the same. Follow joy, beloved Juliana. I would like to ask you to stop thinking that you are doing something wrong, or that you are doing something less. Neither you nor are lacking.

There is nothing you have to do to hear Me. Let Me use a different word from hear. Let’s use the word feel. Just allow yourself to feel even the tiniest bit of My love. Just allow yourself to feel Me close to you, or you close to Me. I am present. You will feel My Presence. I think you may feel it now.

Yearn, beloved, but yearn with assurance.

I know you know what love is. When there is a murmur of love in your heart, that’s Me.

Easily remind yourself of Me, sweet heart. This is not an assignment. This is what you want. This is what I want. We both want you to feel closeness with Me.

There is no urgency here.

Perhaps it would be wise of Me to suggest that you forget about hearing from Me or sensing Me for a little while. Of course, I want you to feel Our Oneness always, yet I want the tenseness to go away. Perhaps forget about hearing from Me or sensing Me for a little while. Does some of the tenseness leave? There are no have-to’s here, sweet child.

Juliana, you are not looking for a spectacular experience. You are looking for an ordinary simple awareness of something between Us. We have a connection, and it is deep, and it is eternal, and yet the experience is quite ordinary.

Jochen finds Me in nature. He feels emboldened by trees.

Where do you get a glimpse of My love, a hint of it, a spot of it?

Look up, My dear Juliana.

Another thing, where did I say that crying was bad? Yes, of course, I want you to wipe your tears, and yet crying is good. Yes, of course, I want you to smile and be happy, so smile and be happy even through your tears.

You describe relative life very well. “...sometimes i know what i'm doing....the next i'm lost....” That pretty well sums it up! Back and forth, up and down, this way and that. And, yet, shining through, there is something more.

Beloved, who gets enough of that something more? And that is the yearning you feel.

Perhaps, when you are not looking, you will see Me right in front of you or by your side. You may look around, and I will be there too. You will know Me everywhere, even in tears.

You may have miserable moments, beloved, but I ask you not to sum up your dear life as miserable. Do not name it that. Name it God’s gift, or blessing, or just plain life.

Will you do this for Me? Will you find some lines in this Heavenletter about listening to God in One’s Heart that speak to you encouragingly? What lines or words are a little bit like a summer breeze to you? And will you copy them down here where everybody can see them and be reminded of My love?

Juliana, it’s all right for you to take life less seriously, angel of My heart.

Give Me a hug now, and know I am still staying with you, for this is what I like to do. This is what I do with all My heart, to love you as I do love you. I AM love. And so are you.