Heavenletters

Hi jaydee. Suicide is a tough one....especially a child of one..it is a tough one for parents, grandparents, siblings, friends, spouses. So many are affected. I never dreamed this could happen in my life. But it did. My oldest daughter took her life 8 years ago. She was 27 at the time and appeared...a year before...to have it all together...and appeared...a year before...to be quite happy. All of us...my ex wife...her close friends...her younger two sisters and brother especially were taken on this raucous ride into grief...that lasted and lasted. And, naturally the rides were different for all of us. Her method of exit...was standing in front of a train that was going very fast. Melissa was and is her name. She was and is a dear heart. I miss her still...and yet she lives in my heart. I think if I did not feel her in my heart...I would be a very troubled person. And she paved the way, so to speak, for when my wife, Sheilah passed away to cancer 2 and a half years ago. Sheilah is in my heart too. Sheilah was and is a very dear heart also. I love them both so much and Jimi does too. Because of their passing, the lives of my remaining adult children have been enriched. But...it has taken time. Just because loved ones pass away doesn't mean that we have to stop loving them...It is an ongoing...standing invitation to love them even more. This is so beautiful! An invitation to love everyone more...to love life more...May all of us learn from "death"...embrace it...in whatever form it comes...take it into our hearts...and learn to embrace whatever legacy it leaves. Loving you always...Jim and Jimi.

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