Heavenletters

Dear God

Recently i don't what happen to me, i was in very bad mood. I am unhappy with my life....one minute i was happy or maybe really a pretentious happy and one minute i'm as moody as cab be....i asked myself these days am i normal... recently a lady broke my jewelry i was so mad....i told her that she has to pay....and she said it's an accident....but i told her if everybody said that then i'm out of biz.... i felt that i don't deserve the way people treated me...i have humbly helping people...but it seemed i'm always at a disadvantage situation i'm too nice sometimes.... i truly understand your advice...but sometimes i felt that you are just watching us....trying to see how we feel and how we react.....i can't hear you at all... i wish you can talk to me.....an angel reader once said to me that i'm in my misery so much that i blocked YOU out..... i don't understand, if you are so powerful... how am i so powerful to BLOCK YOU out.....

I understand i'm in this financial predicament it's my own situation to handle.... but whatever i tried to do .... to manage my emotions so that i can manage my finances..... but how when every moment of my life is so dramatic...... i really don't know how to handle my life anymore.... i wanted something to happen...but as of todate it's not happening ..........i have waited over 30 years and waited for my time..... but it's been a long time.......