Heavenletters

Dear Gloria, I read your comment in a bit of a hurry this morning because we were preparing to leave for our traditional Wednesday in the mountains. (It was, as it always is, more wonderful than I anticipated it to be.) Despite the hurry, something clicked immediately when I read your words. That's in my first short response.

Re-reading your comment now, I realize it contains much more of that beauitiful spirit we all love you for. And I realize that, out of some residual fear but mostly out of habit, I made my comment sound more grim than I really intend to. Life is changing from what I used to think of as a bad trip into an exciting adventure since I found Heavenletters and especially after the letter I received from God last week. Life is different, there is no denying it. Yet once or twice or even more times a day there is a moment of "Is this really true, can I really believe it?" Or "Am I doing it right, am I good enough, am I living up to this-and-that?" And then I notice I don't seriously believe this rubbish any more. Ah, that feels good! It feels so good to see that things don't have to be "righted" or "solved" today or tomorrow and perhaps not at all. The other hand, yes.

I must add something about serving. God's letter made it clear to me in an instant of deep realization, something I have never experienced before, that serving is my true calling and passion in this life. If someone had told me that the day before I received God's letter, I would have said, "Oh, well....." And now that very same thought is joy, joy, joy. (How does He do that?) But at the same time, when I find something wanting - as in "How to deal with the improper behavior of others and my reaction to it?" - I still tend to put the blame on me, asking, "How are you ever going to serve properly when you cannot even love enough to get along with these innocent people?" And then I feel bad. And then I realize I'm doing it again. And then I laugh and know I just have to reach for the other hand. So, it's fresh impulses and old habits and some commotion that is to be expected. It's what you find in my post on "higher education".

So, what would my response to someone else asking my question look like.
It would look pretty much like yours. I will keep it as a most precious reminder.