Heavenletters

This Letter answers the big question I'm having, the question of how to become aware. What can I do to become aware?

Each time I think there is very little that can be done or needs to be done, I find a Heavenletter that seems to be saying, "Still too much!" Yes, it's hard to let go and trust and not automatically look around for things that can be done to get you there. You hear that "All is given", and you think you really heard it but you didn't, you still try to accomplish the unaccomplishable. The thing is, you simply do not believe in "given". You only learned that you must fight for what you want.

I am not something you force yourself to remember or to oblige. I am a memory of a happier time, but I come on My own. Yours is to let Me enter your awareness.
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I am not effort. I am not achieved. Performance does not bring Me. You do not set an alarm clock to waken you to Me. You merely set an intention.
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Anticipate this Great Awareness that is aware of you and holds itself in abeyance for your arrival. Do not wait for Me. Come pick Me up.

You merely set an intention. Did I ever have a real intention, an intention not annulled by doubt? As far as awareness of God is concerned, clearly no. Then how about intending for a clear, solid, unequivocal intention? I hear something like, "Yes, but don't make that a production again."